I haven't seen this fish for ages...

In our language (kayan), we call it 'deket', ('sucker' fish). And in this very particular river have 3 type of them..this one, and the other two, their body pattern is, black dot and stripe, and the body shape is like much longer than this one in the picture.

I grew up in a kampung which surrounded by dozen rivers, and the river was exactly like this..clear, undisturbed, full with fish and going for fishing in the river was never a problem...

Want to go for a picnic, you only need to bring your fishing net and your lighter...

For this experience, i realize, how we need to take care of our rivers. We really need to protect them and the species inside that river.

Before we ask the nature to take care of us...

we better respect the nature first

and take a good care of it..

Simpulkan dengan teratur

hari ini saya terfikir,

betapa kehidupan kita sehari-harian kadang kala menjadi seperti ukiran lingkaran kayu seperti dalam gambar ini,

jika kita tidak pilih untuk membuka lingkarannya dengan berhati-hati, lingkaran tersebut akan putus. bila terputus, maksudnya, satu lingkaran sudah dipaksa untuk jatuh.

bagi saya, kehidupan adalah demikian..

banyak cabaran dan banyak bebananya. bila banyak bebanan maka banyaklah masalahnya..

bila kita tidak tahu bagaimana untuk menyelesaikan masalah, maka kita pilih untuk memutuskan pertalian kita dengan masalah tersebut dengan paksa. bila masalah dipaksa untuk dilupa daripada kehidupan kita, hidup kita tidak akan menjadi lebih teratur seperti yang sepatutnya..

sebab itu, ada baiknya kita menyelesaikan cabaran tersebut dengan teratur, supaya lingkaran kehidupan senang untuk disimpulkan..walau stinggi manapun cabaran yang kita hadapi..

Me and My God

For me, my life right now, at this present moment is, a great blessing from God.

Having to share it with someone i love the most is, an honor.

Experiencing this life today is, the ability for God to trust me, on how i use it for Him.

The only thing i know for sure by give it back to Him and try to the best that i can is, by giving and sharing my love to Him, to my family and to those who surround me with their honesty.

I know it sound weird but this is me.

Most of my day i'll talk to God, like He is actually 'sitting', 'standing' and 'walking' along with me every day, every where i go an in everything i do, and even asking for parking space.

And sometime, my husband will caught me talking to Him by asking, 'what?' while driving, doing house work or, while its heavy rainy day, and thunder lightning.

And the struggling part is, when i ask Him every time i have my unanswered questions

and, when everything feel like falling apart from my daily routine.

But at the end of the day, i still end up talking to Him.

And again, most of the time He'll make me understand from what i'm going through and make a greater choice from that matters for a better life.

I don't know about you, but for me, God is real, Holly Spirit is real, and this Jesus 'thing' is real. That's why i never had any second thought about my God by choosing Him as my personal saviour, father and friend.

Mata'k...mata'k...mata'k...

Mata'k iha' nah pejan kenep tam, pejan ikel tam, dahin pejan batong tam kelunan nih avan tak seng hineng nun kah ket aleng seng ga'k tek kenep tak, nun kah ket halem ikel tak, dahin nuno'k tuk nak seng jadi ji pejan aleng numo lim na'an ket bagi'k batong tak.

Saja'kah..

Sala'k numo...ujong na'k lingo'k kaja ano uri tak, marong hineng tak tek ket aleng en tak numo anan, tenengkah ano urip tak.

Terpulang men itam, nuno'k tuk telo'k seng musut 'kala' matan tam, avin 'kala' anan seng nei nyemo tek alem telok mano urip telo'k putong-putong do..

Halam

Halam iha' nah ji adet aleng jan deng tak ala nyian. Itak murip, murip kenan halam, kinah, itak deng pekaya'k kinah tam kenan adet halam aleng en tam pili, avin tam jam ano urip dahin lu'ong tam en Yesus nyalam.

Halam halem amin, hak jinun halam aleng nageng pu'un kenep tam, itam seng em haman peduan, petmei, peptok dahin petevara halem amin tam, samada antara telo' taman hinan, taman dahin anak atau anak dahin hinan.

Atek lan nak, halam anih iha'k nah ji kusi', kusi'k avan tak seng peketneng gaya urip telok halem telok seng peji murip ji dahin ji.

Tapi' telo'k perlu jam, nunok tu'k seng bara kenep halam anih dahin ikel aleng lan nak.

Mejam tuk kurin long Tuhan deh, malah hukah bo'k hujung kuhong ji-ji kelunan aleng murip tek usun tana anih, Tuhan pah jam kuri hukah nak...Avin nun atih deh..avin kenan HALAM..

Shalom

Tek alem telo' sibuk-sibuk na hadui telo' aleng biasa na' en telok na putong do, tek kah jan telok nei nginga' bahawa beruan tam pun perlu en makan.

Telo' kuman 3 kali' halem ji o dahin anan pun bayet perlu duie ata'k dahin na'. Tapi' kanen belua'k tam kelunan nih, iha' nah basa' long Tuhan baru urip berua' tak aru halem kinah tak tek Tuhan, sebayang, perlu nak itak sebayang ala itak petangen lu'ong tak sediri dahin Tuhan tek alem tak mano hadui dahin urip tak putong do, dahin kerieng dahun Tuhan. Itak kerieng dahun Tuhan anih nah puku' tak tei sebayang dahin kelunan leba' ha' gereja. Lim ketanih atek lan nak, suma' en tak na ji kali' halem ji do.

Avin kenan urip kinah tak kah puku' nak itak deng mejoh urip tak putong-putong do, dahin hipun kenep aleng aru, lebih-lebih nak tegu halem tusah. Anan puku' nak itak perlu kuman kanen rohani anih dahin kenep aleng teneng.