I haven't seen this fish for ages...

In our language (kayan), we call it 'deket', ('sucker' fish). And in this very particular river have 3 type of them..this one, and the other two, their body pattern is, black dot and stripe, and the body shape is like much longer than this one in the picture.

I grew up in a kampung which surrounded by dozen rivers, and the river was exactly like this..clear, undisturbed, full with fish and going for fishing in the river was never a problem...

Want to go for a picnic, you only need to bring your fishing net and your lighter...

For this experience, i realize, how we need to take care of our rivers. We really need to protect them and the species inside that river.

Before we ask the nature to take care of us...

we better respect the nature first

and take a good care of it..

Simpulkan dengan teratur

hari ini saya terfikir,

betapa kehidupan kita sehari-harian kadang kala menjadi seperti ukiran lingkaran kayu seperti dalam gambar ini,

jika kita tidak pilih untuk membuka lingkarannya dengan berhati-hati, lingkaran tersebut akan putus. bila terputus, maksudnya, satu lingkaran sudah dipaksa untuk jatuh.

bagi saya, kehidupan adalah demikian..

banyak cabaran dan banyak bebananya. bila banyak bebanan maka banyaklah masalahnya..

bila kita tidak tahu bagaimana untuk menyelesaikan masalah, maka kita pilih untuk memutuskan pertalian kita dengan masalah tersebut dengan paksa. bila masalah dipaksa untuk dilupa daripada kehidupan kita, hidup kita tidak akan menjadi lebih teratur seperti yang sepatutnya..

sebab itu, ada baiknya kita menyelesaikan cabaran tersebut dengan teratur, supaya lingkaran kehidupan senang untuk disimpulkan..walau stinggi manapun cabaran yang kita hadapi..

Me and My God

For me, my life right now, at this present moment is, a great blessing from God.

Having to share it with someone i love the most is, an honor.

Experiencing this life today is, the ability for God to trust me, on how i use it for Him.

The only thing i know for sure by give it back to Him and try to the best that i can is, by giving and sharing my love to Him, to my family and to those who surround me with their honesty.

I know it sound weird but this is me.

Most of my day i'll talk to God, like He is actually 'sitting', 'standing' and 'walking' along with me every day, every where i go an in everything i do, and even asking for parking space.

And sometime, my husband will caught me talking to Him by asking, 'what?' while driving, doing house work or, while its heavy rainy day, and thunder lightning.

And the struggling part is, when i ask Him every time i have my unanswered questions

and, when everything feel like falling apart from my daily routine.

But at the end of the day, i still end up talking to Him.

And again, most of the time He'll make me understand from what i'm going through and make a greater choice from that matters for a better life.

I don't know about you, but for me, God is real, Holly Spirit is real, and this Jesus 'thing' is real. That's why i never had any second thought about my God by choosing Him as my personal saviour, father and friend.

Mata'k...mata'k...mata'k...

Mata'k iha' nah pejan kenep tam, pejan ikel tam, dahin pejan batong tam kelunan nih avan tak seng hineng nun kah ket aleng seng ga'k tek kenep tak, nun kah ket halem ikel tak, dahin nuno'k tuk nak seng jadi ji pejan aleng numo lim na'an ket bagi'k batong tak.

Saja'kah..

Sala'k numo...ujong na'k lingo'k kaja ano uri tak, marong hineng tak tek ket aleng en tak numo anan, tenengkah ano urip tak.

Terpulang men itam, nuno'k tuk telo'k seng musut 'kala' matan tam, avin 'kala' anan seng nei nyemo tek alem telok mano urip telo'k putong-putong do..

Halam

Halam iha' nah ji adet aleng jan deng tak ala nyian. Itak murip, murip kenan halam, kinah, itak deng pekaya'k kinah tam kenan adet halam aleng en tam pili, avin tam jam ano urip dahin lu'ong tam en Yesus nyalam.

Halam halem amin, hak jinun halam aleng nageng pu'un kenep tam, itam seng em haman peduan, petmei, peptok dahin petevara halem amin tam, samada antara telo' taman hinan, taman dahin anak atau anak dahin hinan.

Atek lan nak, halam anih iha'k nah ji kusi', kusi'k avan tak seng peketneng gaya urip telok halem telok seng peji murip ji dahin ji.

Tapi' telo'k perlu jam, nunok tu'k seng bara kenep halam anih dahin ikel aleng lan nak.

Mejam tuk kurin long Tuhan deh, malah hukah bo'k hujung kuhong ji-ji kelunan aleng murip tek usun tana anih, Tuhan pah jam kuri hukah nak...Avin nun atih deh..avin kenan HALAM..

Shalom

Tek alem telo' sibuk-sibuk na hadui telo' aleng biasa na' en telok na putong do, tek kah jan telok nei nginga' bahawa beruan tam pun perlu en makan.

Telo' kuman 3 kali' halem ji o dahin anan pun bayet perlu duie ata'k dahin na'. Tapi' kanen belua'k tam kelunan nih, iha' nah basa' long Tuhan baru urip berua' tak aru halem kinah tak tek Tuhan, sebayang, perlu nak itak sebayang ala itak petangen lu'ong tak sediri dahin Tuhan tek alem tak mano hadui dahin urip tak putong do, dahin kerieng dahun Tuhan. Itak kerieng dahun Tuhan anih nah puku' tak tei sebayang dahin kelunan leba' ha' gereja. Lim ketanih atek lan nak, suma' en tak na ji kali' halem ji do.

Avin kenan urip kinah tak kah puku' nak itak deng mejoh urip tak putong-putong do, dahin hipun kenep aleng aru, lebih-lebih nak tegu halem tusah. Anan puku' nak itak perlu kuman kanen rohani anih dahin kenep aleng teneng.

Shalom...

Jehima anih deh kalo'k panak dahin ji pemimpin gereja nesek tei ilo hungei avan seng baptis daha'k ahli gereja aleng seng en baptis. Jadi kame'k pun habong hungei anan. Avan ha' Bau', Kg.Segong, kira 30 minet dreba men kusieng. Hungei anan atek kajo lan. Ayan na', ayan hungei Jangan Aya', naha nak tiah naha Jangan Umi, dahin sol hungei nak tiah sol hungei Latat. Em....kawah ....uma unak...lebak atak...leba hungei...nyeliram balu' dahin liveng hineng daleh anan tiah daleh una'k tak, tapi' kerei emyan la'an..

Leba'k bua Apu, leba'k masie'k deket, keurong, luang o'k dahin si...oh ya..berjaya kui sikep ji anak kelev hungei lan..;->...aleng japan nak netu'k.

Daleh anan leba' bulu, leba' uvah dahin mugu....

Halem kui pikel murip su men gaya hadui uma aru dahin gaya urip daha'k putong do, nei na akui pelemana'k, alangkah tusah nak daha' ilo beraja'k dahak putong-putong do.

Jan en tak kira' nah men dahak aleng hukah anak daha'k. Te'k sayu nak telo' aleng taman hinan ala kira'k, dahin megunah nak telo' seng terus terang dahin dahak anak-anak telo'k, tek joh tusah urip halem amin dahin daho'k aleng lemel, dahin daho'k ajal aleng seng nei na daha'k nginga'k.

Ilo sin putong do...putong migu..dahin putong bulan...jan en kira'k nah belaja'k ubat la'an. Bagi daha'k aleng hipun hadui tetap okla..tapi'k bagi' telo'k aleng ala masa avan telo' ilo rigit sajakah na'k tusah lan.

Atek lan nak telo' aleng seng jadi taman hinan urip kerei aleng tek ha'k uma aru perlu jam tusah anih.

Iha'kah...lim ket aleng en tak na, kenep tak kelunan nih aleng geri ita'. Teneng kenep ta'k, tenengkah urip ta'k...telo perlu jam..pili kenep aleng teneng saja'k ji alan aleng pawel dahin susah..

Serita' tek joh urip liveng.

Liveng ken ta', hineng gaya urip kerei, leba' ket aleng en ta' na men umol tak nih deh nyam na, jan daha' nyam kerei anih na.

Una'k, keliah tak iha' nah tei nyatong ha' bahe'k hungei, tei kuman bahe'k ujong migu, tei mese'k, tei sikep, main sina asat, main sieng (pasieng) main asat kina'k, main to'k, pilo hok dahin leba' keliah-keliah unak aleng au tehari en hado.

Tegu do ramei pula, telo' akan na kajel hudo', nakel iong pute'k aleng en ubeng anyeh, kajel hudo'k kalui, long dance, pusut angah, purah ata'k, dsb...

Urip kerei, keliah daha'k nah anih. Merun dahin komputer, ikem seng main game, daha' akan seng pili main game halem komputer...

Anih na akui pikel, tek ka jan telo' taman dahin hinan serita' men daha'k anak-anak telo' men ino'k asel telo'k, dahin nuno'k tok gaya urip nyam telo'k men daha'....

Sayu kuman belua do...akui harep telo' seng hipun do hadui migu anih ji do aleng megunah men hadui telo' ataupun men daha' halem amin telo'.

Pikel te' joh tusah na' na ji-ji hadui, ha' mejam tuk tak pelemana' sayu, lim na'an hadui aleng te' halem keligem tak, sajakah na' pengitung tusah na'.

Jinun aleng melei, jinun aleng ngeriman dahin jinun aleng beka' terima' rigit halem kuman udu tak tua. Leba' pengjei/pengorbanan aleng perlu en ta' na. Ha'k nak jan daha' halem amin tak, pengjei anan seng nei men gaya urip tak, hak nak jan urip tak, pengjei nak iha' nah rigit tak, hak nak jan rigit tak, pengjei nak iha' nah hubungan tak dahin avan tak tei sebayang, reti nak urip belua' tak, hak jan urip beruan tak, pengjei nak iha' nah urip batong lu'ong tak sediri.

Tujuan nak en Tuhan koh iha' nah, baru tak belajar reti urip aleng lan nak.

Avin lim ket en tak na, sajakah tek mi dahin pa'ie nak, baru tak jam leng urip aleng en pili anan. Au anan terpulang men itak seng pili banah dahin hino' tua tei ujuong nak urip telo' anan.

Urip iha' nah ji a'ie aleng en Tuhan jei.

Terpulang men telok seng pekaya' na' dahin uge' aleng en Na' jei anan seng en telo' megunah dahin sayu.

Leba' kelunan, urip kerei seng beka' ala itel ji kali anan en na' pakei avan na' seng pelega'k kelunan.

Ate'k lan nak, tuju a'ie uge'k anan en Na' a'ie jan na' seng pelega'k ji dahin ji, tapi seng ngepju urip ji dahin ji.

Liveng

Dahalem deh kalo' panak tei ha' Bau' tei 'go 4 drive', temoh tei hineng that small town. Leba' ket aleng interesting dahin ket en daha' bele'pun jan berapa mahel. Jadi a'k mele' la hwieng men daha' aso' kui. Avin legah hwieng anih ha' Serian meran mahel. 1/2 isi diameter, legah na' ha' Serian, rm 4, sedangkan lega' hwieng sais anan ha' Bau rm1...

em....anih na' akui nei pikel, patutlah nah legah ket, meran su beza udei legah na' ti ji-ji avan...kerana 'orang tengah'...

Buka' daleh syurga

Bei nah tingan Ka' nei ngileh

Buka' nah kenep kame'

Bei kamei nei jam Ika'

Buka' daleh syurga

Bei nah tingan Ka' nei ngileh

Buka' nah kenep kame'

Buka' nah kenep kame'

Levi do lima, kalo' panak tei sebayang ha' gereja shalom (unimas) dahin 300 hukah daha' muda-mudi men unimas dahin uitm, dahin pengkhobah na' ps. Ding men k.e.c. Gereja anih iha' nah ji gereja aleng penu dahin kelunan aleng jam Tuhan, aleng ikem jam Tuhan dahin aleng ikem mengalami hadirat Tuhan.

Akui tersentuh dahin kenep Tuhan aleng ikem nei geri daha' kelunan masem bengsa, masem gaya urip, masem ju daha' dahin masem na'an perah pa'ie urip ikem daha' ikem nei mengalami hadirat Na'.

Men lagu ateng bara long, lim na' iha' nah ngpu'ong en na dahin gaya urip kerei ngioh pengjam daha' nyam men dua-dua universiti anan.

Akui harep long 'Do matei dahin peju na' Tuhan Yesus men patei' anih seng ji jadi pengingat men telo' lim te' alem telo' mano urip telo' putong do...